Why I'm doing this out loud. What I'm actually working on. And what you're signing up for.
I have been planning the version of myself I want to be for a long time.
Not vaguely. Specifically. I have the journals with the dates on the covers. I have the vision boards — plural, different years, similar themes. I have a notes app that is essentially a museum of things I was going to start doing on Monday.
And I kept showing up for Monday. I just kept not showing up for the thing.
At some point that stops being bad timing and starts being a pattern. The Audacity Project is me deciding to look at the pattern directly instead of around it.
Why out loud
Someone is going to ask me why I'm doing this publicly. Why not just do it privately, track it privately, become who I want to be without anyone watching.
The honest answer is two things.
One. I need witnesses. Something about knowing people are following this makes me show up differently. Not perform differently — show up differently. There is a version of me that quietly abandons things when nobody is watching. I am not letting her run this year.
Two. I think some of you need to see this.
Not from someone who already figured it out. Not a course. Not a transformation highlight reel from someone on the other side of the hard part. From someone your age, your energy level at the end of a full week, your tax bracket, still inside a full life — doing this in real time without pretending it's easy or aesthetically pleasing.
That's what this is. That's why it's public.
What I'm actually working on
I want to be specific here because vague growth content is everywhere and it is not what this project is.
Here is the real list.
My relationship with my own time. I give it away freely and then I quietly resent the people I gave it to. That is not their fault. That is a boundary I did not hold, dressed up as generosity. I am working on that.
Building something that makes money. I have a creative brand I believe in. I have been treating it like a passion project with good intentions. That ends this year. The Audacity Project is where the brand stops being a hobby.
The gap between how I show up for other people's goals and how I show up for my own. I am excellent at other people's visions. I show up early, I stay late, I solve problems that are not mine to solve. I am learning to bring that same quality of attention to my own work.
My finances. Not in crisis. Not irresponsible. But not intentional either. There is a version of my financial life that actually reflects what I want. I am building toward it.
Becoming someone who finishes things. I start well. I plan well. The follow-through is the edge I am working on — out loud, so I cannot quietly quit without anyone noticing.
That is what is on the table. Not aesthetics. Not abstract self-improvement. This specific list, this specific year.
What following along actually means
Every two weeks you get a Field Note. One thing that is actually working. What I tried, what happened, what I am taking forward. No gatekeeping, no saving the useful parts for a paid tier.
You are going to see the messy middle. Not because I am performing struggle — because that is what real time looks like. There will be weeks that do not go the way I planned. I will report on those too.
You are going to see what it actually costs to build something while you are still inside a full life. Job, responsibilities, a Yorkie with strong opinions about my schedule. All of it.
And you are going to see whether this works.
I do not know yet. That is the whole point. If I already knew, it would not be a bet — it would be a plan. This is a bet.
If you have been waiting to see someone do this honestly — at this age, with this much already on their plate, without the safety net of having figured it out first — this is it.
Issue 002 drops in two weeks. The first real report.
The Audacity Project is a year-long public challenge built around one question: What would the version of you who already has the thing actually do? Follow along at audacity-project.com.